Here is Good

Ok, I need to back track a little bit in the story. During the week break from school, I had turned my focus back to my mission papers. I had gone through the first parts of the papers fairly quickly in January, but I had let doubts and boys get in the way of finishing up the rest of them. I had spent a lot of time going back and forth and back and forth about it all. Thinking about it. Praying about it. Talking with my parents, friends, and other family. I really wanted to go out and teach people about the gospel that I love so much, but I was also terrified about it. I'm pretty shy at first, and so I was scared about going out to talk to total strangers. But over the break between  semesters in April, I jumped full force back into the mission-mobile. I got my dental examination and set up my physical examination at the Student Health Center on campus for the first day of the semester. I was also in a Mission Prep class for Spring semester, and I was really excited for it! One o...

I have to admit, I was surprised but not necessarily happy that Josh had texted me. Just confused. He was happy that I had come? And watched him sit on the sidelines all afternoon? He had barely spoken to me the whole time! But when he apologized for not being very talkative, the beginnings of frustration with him washed away. I still wasn't completely happy with him, but it was still nice that he had apologized. We kept chatting for a little bit longer, and by the time we said goodnight, I wasn't entirely sure what was going to happen when I saw him next in a couple of days. Maybe we were just going to be friends forever, nothing more. But despite my confused feelings for Josh, there was no way for me to avoid him to figure them out, because once I got back to Rexburg on Sunday, we ended up seeing each other essentially every day that week. Monday was FHE. Tuesday, he sat by me at devotional, and then walked me to work at the Student Health Center before heading home. Wedn...