Our Little Peanut
November 8th
So I've been meaning to start writing this a couple of weeks ago, but I keep forgetting. BUT, I am dying with holding this wonderful news inside of me: I'M PREGNANT!!!!! This still feels all so unreal, and yet I'm overflowing with joy!
Ok, so let me explain how this all came to be. My last cycle started the first week of September, and per Dr. Heiner, I had a big list of labs, tests, and medications to get done. And for some reason, the fact that I was having to go through all of this was extremely overwhelming, and I was an emotional wreck. I'm talking hanging up on Josh, crying through an ultrasound, eating all chocolate in sight kind of wreck. I went through another round of Clomid and had my fallopian tubes checked (which looked great), but I was in such a funk, that I didn't have any hope that this would work.
I needed a break. We both did. So we decided that after this cycle, we would take a few months off to recuperate.
But I still kept using my ovulation tests, just to see if the Clomid actually worked to make me ovulate or not. Unfortunately, right around the time when I would have ovulated from the Clomid (near the end of September), I came down hard with the flu.
Whelp, there goes this month.
But knowing that it wasn't going to happen was nice. I could already start to move into that mindset that Josh and I were going to be taking a break and stepping away from all the stress. Just knowing that that was going to happen made my life so much easier.
But as it got around the middle of October, my period still hadn't started. So I took a pregnancy test. Unsurprisingly, it was negative. This similar kind of thing had happened in April when I got bronchitis, and I had to eventually take medication to kick-start my period. It gave me some of the worst cramps I had ever experienced, and so I was not keen on going through that again. So I figured I would wait another week or so before I took another test and called my doctor.
The next Sunday (October 23rd) rolled around bright and early for me. I hadn't been sleeping well, and on this particular morning, my body decided to wake up at 4:30 in the morning... Since I was up, I decided to go ahead and take another pregnancy test. As I sat there half awake, I finally looked over and to my complete surprise, the test did not say "not pregnant", like I was anticipating, but a big fat "PREGNANT". I was in complete shock. I had been waiting for this moment for 2 years, and despite that, I was completely broadsided by this change of events. My brain couldn't comprehend what my eyes were seeing. So I put the test in a drawer, and crawled back in bed next to a sleeping Josh, staring at the ceiling, still trying to process what was happening. Not surprisingly, I couldn't fall back asleep, and I eventually gave up trying. In my scattered haze, I decided that I wanted to wait and do something cute to tell Josh. After all, we had been trying for so long and this is our first sweet little baby!
Because of work, it took me a few days to figure out what I wanted to do to tell Josh and get the stuff I needed for it. (In the mean time, I took a couple more pregnancy tests, just to make sure I wasn't crazy.) Finally on Friday I was ready.
So I've been meaning to start writing this a couple of weeks ago, but I keep forgetting. BUT, I am dying with holding this wonderful news inside of me: I'M PREGNANT!!!!! This still feels all so unreal, and yet I'm overflowing with joy!
Ok, so let me explain how this all came to be. My last cycle started the first week of September, and per Dr. Heiner, I had a big list of labs, tests, and medications to get done. And for some reason, the fact that I was having to go through all of this was extremely overwhelming, and I was an emotional wreck. I'm talking hanging up on Josh, crying through an ultrasound, eating all chocolate in sight kind of wreck. I went through another round of Clomid and had my fallopian tubes checked (which looked great), but I was in such a funk, that I didn't have any hope that this would work.
I needed a break. We both did. So we decided that after this cycle, we would take a few months off to recuperate.
But I still kept using my ovulation tests, just to see if the Clomid actually worked to make me ovulate or not. Unfortunately, right around the time when I would have ovulated from the Clomid (near the end of September), I came down hard with the flu.
Whelp, there goes this month.
But knowing that it wasn't going to happen was nice. I could already start to move into that mindset that Josh and I were going to be taking a break and stepping away from all the stress. Just knowing that that was going to happen made my life so much easier.
But as it got around the middle of October, my period still hadn't started. So I took a pregnancy test. Unsurprisingly, it was negative. This similar kind of thing had happened in April when I got bronchitis, and I had to eventually take medication to kick-start my period. It gave me some of the worst cramps I had ever experienced, and so I was not keen on going through that again. So I figured I would wait another week or so before I took another test and called my doctor.
The next Sunday (October 23rd) rolled around bright and early for me. I hadn't been sleeping well, and on this particular morning, my body decided to wake up at 4:30 in the morning... Since I was up, I decided to go ahead and take another pregnancy test. As I sat there half awake, I finally looked over and to my complete surprise, the test did not say "not pregnant", like I was anticipating, but a big fat "PREGNANT". I was in complete shock. I had been waiting for this moment for 2 years, and despite that, I was completely broadsided by this change of events. My brain couldn't comprehend what my eyes were seeing. So I put the test in a drawer, and crawled back in bed next to a sleeping Josh, staring at the ceiling, still trying to process what was happening. Not surprisingly, I couldn't fall back asleep, and I eventually gave up trying. In my scattered haze, I decided that I wanted to wait and do something cute to tell Josh. After all, we had been trying for so long and this is our first sweet little baby!
Because of work, it took me a few days to figure out what I wanted to do to tell Josh and get the stuff I needed for it. (In the mean time, I took a couple more pregnancy tests, just to make sure I wasn't crazy.) Finally on Friday I was ready.
November 9th
(Sorry, I fell asleep.) While Josh was in class, I got the surprise set up on our bed. When Josh got home from class, I was trying to act all nonchalant on the couch, and, per the norm, he came over to give me a hug. But he also decided now was a great time to just snuggle instead of going to to put on shorts, like I had expected him to do. I didn't want him to wait too long before finding the surprise, so it only took me a few minutes to get impatient and try to find a way to get him to go look. So I asked him ever so sweetly to go get my water bottle, which I was "pretty sure" that I had left in the bedroom :) Grumbling, he reluctantly got up. I got off the couch and went into the kitchen so I could watch him. Josh started to go past the bed, then stopped, and looked at the bed.
(the blanket is my baby blanket made for me by my grandma)
Josh came back out of the room with a completely stunned grin on his face, all he could say was, "What??" Then he was over and giving me a massive hug and kiss, both of us almost in tears because we were so, so happy!
We couldn't wait to start telling people - Josh wanted to call his parents right away, but I convinced him to let me do something cute for our parents. Unfortunately, I gave the mail system too much credit, and Josh's parents' gifts arrived days later than it was supposed to (sorry!)
But this is what went sent them:
My youngest brother kept telling me that it was "super awkward" that I sent them a binky in the mail, haha!
We called or told our siblings and close friends, but it's already proving difficult to keep it a secret from everyone - we're just so excited that this is finally happening!
So far the biggest pregnancy symptoms I've had (I'll spare the details on the other, less pleasant things I'm experiencing) are getting hungry every few hours (with some nausea mixed in if I don't eat fast enough) and fatigue. I seriously want to sleep all the time, and food is both my best friend and my worst enemy. Luckily no vomiting just yet, and I'm doing everything I can to prevent that from happening.
The hardest thing is waiting for our ultrasound, which is a week from tomorrow!! We can't wait to see our cute little nugget!
November 17th
Today was a WONDERFUL day!!! We finally got to have our ultrasound and was so amazing!
We had a little moment of panic when Josh got called into work for a few hours and of course got a call 15 minutes before he was supposed to be done with work. So since our doctor's office is in Idaho Falls we were about 20 minutes late, and thanks to my lovely pregnancy hormones, I was almost in tears, convinced that we weren't going to be able to have it done today. But luckily since they were just getting back from lunch, we were still able to get everything done!
The ultrasound was first, and first the tech looked at my ovaries and cervix, but as she was scanning back and forth, we could catch little quick glimpses of the baby and it made my breath catch a little each time. Finally she focused on the baby! It looks more like a blob than a baby at this point (plus the thing that looks like a head is really the yolk sac), but it's so cute! It's measuring at about 1.36 cm and at 7 weeks 5 days old! So my due date is about July 1st!!!!
And then we got to hear the heartbeat!! (That's the wavy lines at the bottom of the picture.) The tech told us to be quiet and for me to hold really still, but then all of the sudden we heard this loud, strong "Thump-thump-thump-thump-thump". The thrill of hearing that loud little heart going made me jump a little - there's actually is a little baby in there! I looked over at Josh, and he had the biggest grin on his face! :)
Then we got to sit and talk with Dr. Leavitt, who gave us a quick rundown of how the next 7 months will go with check-ups and such. Something that there office does which Josh and I really like is that even though they have several doctors there, I should be able to meet with Dr. Leavitt each time, and all the doctors try to deliver their own babies. They cover for each other over the weekend, but during the week they attend all of their own deliveries. Plus Josh will be able to help catch the baby if he wants!
We'll have another check-up next month! I just can't stop smiling! We're going to be parents!!
Also, shout out to our wonderful friends, the Blands, for getting us this ADORABLE onesie for our future Harry Potter nerd :)
I'm trying to hold out telling everyone until January, like we planned, but it's getting harder and harder, and sometimes, I just can't help it :) But I'm determined to wait until after the new year because I have a (hopefully) cute announcement idea that I really want to do.
Talk to you next week!
December 19th
Sorry, things got so crazy with work and getting ready for holiday travels, that I just didn't get to posting about week 11. So I guess you get two weeks at once!
(Also, we have officially announced the baby to the Facebook world, so I'll probably switch to monthly posts,)
November 17th
Today was a WONDERFUL day!!! We finally got to have our ultrasound and was so amazing!
We had a little moment of panic when Josh got called into work for a few hours and of course got a call 15 minutes before he was supposed to be done with work. So since our doctor's office is in Idaho Falls we were about 20 minutes late, and thanks to my lovely pregnancy hormones, I was almost in tears, convinced that we weren't going to be able to have it done today. But luckily since they were just getting back from lunch, we were still able to get everything done!
The ultrasound was first, and first the tech looked at my ovaries and cervix, but as she was scanning back and forth, we could catch little quick glimpses of the baby and it made my breath catch a little each time. Finally she focused on the baby! It looks more like a blob than a baby at this point (plus the thing that looks like a head is really the yolk sac), but it's so cute! It's measuring at about 1.36 cm and at 7 weeks 5 days old! So my due date is about July 1st!!!!
And then we got to hear the heartbeat!! (That's the wavy lines at the bottom of the picture.) The tech told us to be quiet and for me to hold really still, but then all of the sudden we heard this loud, strong "Thump-thump-thump-thump-thump". The thrill of hearing that loud little heart going made me jump a little - there's actually is a little baby in there! I looked over at Josh, and he had the biggest grin on his face! :)
Then we got to sit and talk with Dr. Leavitt, who gave us a quick rundown of how the next 7 months will go with check-ups and such. Something that there office does which Josh and I really like is that even though they have several doctors there, I should be able to meet with Dr. Leavitt each time, and all the doctors try to deliver their own babies. They cover for each other over the weekend, but during the week they attend all of their own deliveries. Plus Josh will be able to help catch the baby if he wants!
We'll have another check-up next month! I just can't stop smiling! We're going to be parents!!
November 19th
Happy 8 weeks! I'm not sure if this picture really shows baby showing or all of the food I had just eaten showing (probably the food), but hey! :)
It's kind of crazy that I'm already almost 2/3 of the way through the 1st trimester. Every day I get more and more excited that we're finally having a baby and the little things that go along with preparing for it (like already stocking up on baby wipes because you found a sale on them at the store).
The fatigue is the biggest symptom I've been dealing with. It's nothing new for me to sleep in, then feel tired only a few hours later. Today, for example, I slept in until 10, then by 3:30, I was dead tired.
The nausea comes and goes, but it seems to be getting better day by day. Or at least, I'm getting better at combating it. Food and I have a love-hate relationship going on right now. My favorite things to snack on currently are saltines, goldfish, and fruit snacks. Being pregnant seems to have heightened my love of carbs and meat, and so it's even bigger of a struggle to get my veggies and such in, but I'm working on it.
Love our little raspberry baby!
November 26th
Happy 9 weeks! (Ignore my post-nap tired/ pre-work face - it was a very nice long much needed nap). We have now officially reached month 3! The baby is about an inch long (about the size of a green olive) at this point and growing like crazy!
My nausea is on the downward trend (hopefully), and the tiredness seems to have leveled out some (though I will not say no to a nice nap). Certain smells are starting to bother me, but luckily nothing to the point of nausea.
Some part of nesting seems to have struck already because I just want to go out and buy all the stuff for this little baby already! I know I can't yet since we don't know if it's a boy or girl, but that didn't stop me from dragging Josh to Walmart this morning before we left Utah to walk up and down every baby aisle :)
It's crazy how time is flying by, but we're anxiously awaiting when we get to have another ultrasound to look at our cute little baby!
December 4th
Happy 10 weeks (and 1 day)! We are now officially 1/4th of the way through this pregnancy - crazy, right?! Our sweet little baby keeps growing by leaps and bounds and is now about 1.5 inches long (the length of a prune) and is no longer an embryo, but a fetus! That means that all body systems have been formed, and now they just need to keep developing and getting bigger!
I feel like I look smaller in this picture this week than I did last week, but that's good ol' pregnancy bloating my friends. I've actually lost a couple of pounds since being pregnant thanks to my lack of an appetite, but my clothes are still feeling a little snugger than usual. My nausea and tiredness are pretty much the same, and I'm realizing that I have been very blessed so far with a fairly easy pregnancy. I can't imagine how work would've been these past several weeks if I was throwing up all the time.
But heartburn has come raging in, and I'm not too thrilled about that. And the worst part is, it seems to be my cravings that give me the worst heartburn - like, I feel like I'm having a heart attack kind of heartburn. Tums has overnight become one of my best friends :)
I've contained my over-eagerness to go buy everything baby thing we'll need by telling myself that we'll wait until we get our tax return in the spring, but I'm still cruising Pinterest looking for good ideas, or looking for deals on cheaper baby items. And I was more than excited to snag a good deal on a used glider rocking chair for only $35!
Also, shout out to our wonderful friends, the Blands, for getting us this ADORABLE onesie for our future Harry Potter nerd :)
I'm trying to hold out telling everyone until January, like we planned, but it's getting harder and harder, and sometimes, I just can't help it :) But I'm determined to wait until after the new year because I have a (hopefully) cute announcement idea that I really want to do.
Talk to you next week!
December 19th
Sorry, things got so crazy with work and getting ready for holiday travels, that I just didn't get to posting about week 11. So I guess you get two weeks at once!
(Also, we have officially announced the baby to the Facebook world, so I'll probably switch to monthly posts,)
(Week 11)
(Week 12)
So updates on the past couple of weeks. Baby is now about 2 inches long (about the length of a plum) and weighs a whoppin' 0.5 ounce. Apparently little peanut is moving around plenty in there, but he/she's still too small for me too feel just yet. Also, Baby's little body is still working on straightening out more from its curled up position, as well as other parts of its body that are moving into their final positions.
We had our second baby appointment last Thursday, and this time we met with the PA, Monica, who works with Dr. Leavitt. She did basically a full body assessment on me (and everything looked great), and then we got to listen to Baby's heartbeat again. We got a little scare when it took longer than expected to find the heartbeat, but Monica finally found Baby hiding in a corner of my uterus :) My heart was pounding so hard by that point, that she couldn't get Baby's heartbeat isolated on its own, but it was still such a relief to heart that sweet sound again!
We should be able to find out the gender in about 8 weeks (so right around Valentine's Day!), and we're so excited to find out if we have a little boy or girl! Josh and I keep refining and changing our baby name list, and recently we made some major changes to our list. But we're going to be extra stubborn and not tell anyone (even the grandparents) what names we're picking, so don't ask! :)
My fatigue and constant hunger are still hanging around, but I'm hoping they go away as we get into the second trimester - only two weeks away! But luckily the bloating has gotten much better, though I really can't wait for the official bump to get here!
Pregnancy brain continues to plague me, so don't ask me for specific details on anything - I most likely won't know, haha! Also heartburn is still there, but isn't as bad lately since I've been better at eating smaller meals more frequently. You will never not find snacks more than a few feet away from my person.
Also, we asked Josh's sister to take some baby announcement pictures for us, and they were so cute that I wanted to post them on Facebook as soon as we got them - so much for holding out until January, haha!
We love our little baby so much already and we can't wait for July to get here!
December 24th
Merry Christmas everyone! We have finally made it to the last week of the first trimester, and I am ready to say goodbye to it. Honestly, I've had a fairly smooth go of it, but I'm ready to get some energy back, and for this baby bump to get lots bigger!
Baby Guin is now almost 3 inches long (the size of a lemon/jalapeno/peach, depending on which app you look at), and weighs somewhere around 0.8 ounces. But despite still being so small, it's getting slightly more uncomfortable to bend over chairs and such, or to be curled up in a tight ball. Baby is also developing vocal cords and teeth, and he/she already has tiny little fingerprints!
My nausea has pretty much all disappeared, but the fatigue is still holding on like a vice. There's been a few nights this past week where I start to feel ready for bed at 6pm... But being on vacation has been wonderful so I can sleep for as long as I want every night. Going back to reality later this week is going to be difficult, haha!
I haven't had as much heartburn, but reflux is kicking my butt instead. It's challenging when I get thirsty, but my stomach is full so if I do get some water, guaranteed I'm going to feel miserable in a little bit.
Josh is still really hoping for a boy, and I have no idea what I think this little baby is, but especially at this wonderful time of year, we are so grateful for this sweet little one!
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