The Story of Us - Part 3
I've never been good with dating - ever. I tend to get super awkward around guys, especially if I think they like me. Which is probably why at that point in my life, I had never had a boyfriend, and if I was fortunate enough to get asked on a date, there was rarely a second one to follow.
On top of that, when I do like a guy, I tended to fall hard, and so the result was a broken heart a couple of times over in the previous few months before that semester. So I didn't want anything to do with guys at the moment.
But at the same time I did.
Dating stinks.
Anyways, after that night of card games, I put myself in a very weird position of trying to avoid Josh but at the same time not ignore him because we were kinda friends at this point. But I could tell he was wanting to ask me on a date and I didn't want that to happen. Plus I knew my roommate still really liked him and I didn't want her to get hurt.
At the same time, I kept noticing little things that were very similar between the two of us. We both liked sports. We both wanted to go into the medical field. And we kept somehow matching at church. It was very annoying.
One Sunday, my roommates and I decided to watch Lord of the Rings that night (Mom don't judge), and Allison invited the guys after Sacrament meeting to come join us. As we were leaving Sacrament meeting, Josh stopped me and said, "Hey, do you want to just text me when you guys are ready to watch the movie?" I didn't know how to get out of the situation so I said sure, and put his number into my phone. That night, though, when we were about ready to watch the movie, I was talking on the phone with my family, so I had Allison text Josh instead. Once the movie was over, my brother Justus needed a ride back over to his dorm, so I turned to Josh and asked if he wanted a ride home too. It was very clear that he wanted to stay a bit longer, but said yes to the ride anyway. And since I didn't want to be alone in the car with Josh, I dropped him off first and then took Justus home. Crisis averted.
A few days later, though, one of my roommates and I started talking in the hallway of our apartment. I knew she still liked Josh and so I asked how things were going. She got a weird look on her face, and said, "Well he likes someone else." She wouldn't say who, but I could tell by the look on her face and this feeling in my gut that she was talking about me. I felt horrible because things with guys always seemed to turn out this way for her and this time it was because of me. I said I was sorry, but she said she wasn't mad, just disappointed.
So I knew the inevitable was going to happen - Josh was going to find a way to ask me on a date. And that he did. (He later admitted to me that he knew Facebook was the lamest way possible to ask me on a date, but I had done a really good job at not giving him another opportunity.) This message came the very next day:
On top of that, when I do like a guy, I tended to fall hard, and so the result was a broken heart a couple of times over in the previous few months before that semester. So I didn't want anything to do with guys at the moment.
But at the same time I did.
Dating stinks.
Anyways, after that night of card games, I put myself in a very weird position of trying to avoid Josh but at the same time not ignore him because we were kinda friends at this point. But I could tell he was wanting to ask me on a date and I didn't want that to happen. Plus I knew my roommate still really liked him and I didn't want her to get hurt.
At the same time, I kept noticing little things that were very similar between the two of us. We both liked sports. We both wanted to go into the medical field. And we kept somehow matching at church. It was very annoying.
One Sunday, my roommates and I decided to watch Lord of the Rings that night (Mom don't judge), and Allison invited the guys after Sacrament meeting to come join us. As we were leaving Sacrament meeting, Josh stopped me and said, "Hey, do you want to just text me when you guys are ready to watch the movie?" I didn't know how to get out of the situation so I said sure, and put his number into my phone. That night, though, when we were about ready to watch the movie, I was talking on the phone with my family, so I had Allison text Josh instead. Once the movie was over, my brother Justus needed a ride back over to his dorm, so I turned to Josh and asked if he wanted a ride home too. It was very clear that he wanted to stay a bit longer, but said yes to the ride anyway. And since I didn't want to be alone in the car with Josh, I dropped him off first and then took Justus home. Crisis averted.
A few days later, though, one of my roommates and I started talking in the hallway of our apartment. I knew she still liked Josh and so I asked how things were going. She got a weird look on her face, and said, "Well he likes someone else." She wouldn't say who, but I could tell by the look on her face and this feeling in my gut that she was talking about me. I felt horrible because things with guys always seemed to turn out this way for her and this time it was because of me. I said I was sorry, but she said she wasn't mad, just disappointed.
So I knew the inevitable was going to happen - Josh was going to find a way to ask me on a date. And that he did. (He later admitted to me that he knew Facebook was the lamest way possible to ask me on a date, but I had done a really good job at not giving him another opportunity.) This message came the very next day:
To be continued...
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